I can't believe it's already Friday again! So, that means it's weigh-in day. I got on the scale first thing this morning and it showed I had lost one pound, then I did it again an hour later and it showed three, so I'll split the difference and assume I've lost two again....since I've been pretty much on track for the eating and exercise as I have the last two weeks. The precise number isn't a concern for me since I'm not getting any prizes and I'm not in danger of being voted off of anything......as long as I'm still losing, I'm okay with it.
We are having a little stretch of absolutely beautiful weather here. I should really find time to go to the beach. I do live on Cape Cod, y'know. I wish I liked to swim more than I do. It's such great exercise. I have to admit it's not fear of water that keeps me from doing it. I don't have great swimming form or skills, but I can stay afloat. The few times I let myself go in the water, I love the feeling of just floating on my back and looking at the clouds.
No, it's not any fear of waves keeping me land bound. It's the fact that I haven't been comfortable in a bathing suit since this picture was taken. I was eight years old....the horizontal stripes didn't bother me at all. The horrible pixie hair cut that made my face look fat....I didn't think twice about it. I don't know exactly why that changed, but I know that after that I spent my life feeling that I was too fat to expose myself and would never go to the beach without a cover up. When I was older, I avoided the beach whenever I could. When I think of all the things I didn't let myself enjoy because I was too embarassed looking the way I did....it's sad. And the thing is, I wasn't really fat....I just thought I was. I'm sure I could go into the reasons for that....and I will at another time. But it's too gorgeous here today and I want to go enjoy it before it gets hot and muggy again. So, just a short post today.....it's time to get moving!
We are having a little stretch of absolutely beautiful weather here. I should really find time to go to the beach. I do live on Cape Cod, y'know. I wish I liked to swim more than I do. It's such great exercise. I have to admit it's not fear of water that keeps me from doing it. I don't have great swimming form or skills, but I can stay afloat. The few times I let myself go in the water, I love the feeling of just floating on my back and looking at the clouds.
No, it's not any fear of waves keeping me land bound. It's the fact that I haven't been comfortable in a bathing suit since this picture was taken. I was eight years old....the horizontal stripes didn't bother me at all. The horrible pixie hair cut that made my face look fat....I didn't think twice about it. I don't know exactly why that changed, but I know that after that I spent my life feeling that I was too fat to expose myself and would never go to the beach without a cover up. When I was older, I avoided the beach whenever I could. When I think of all the things I didn't let myself enjoy because I was too embarassed looking the way I did....it's sad. And the thing is, I wasn't really fat....I just thought I was. I'm sure I could go into the reasons for that....and I will at another time. But it's too gorgeous here today and I want to go enjoy it before it gets hot and muggy again. So, just a short post today.....it's time to get moving!
